Monday, January 30, 2012

Sarina Joienne

That would be me! I'm 16 years old and am a junior in high school.
I recently found out that I'm pregnant. I'm due September 12, 2012. My boyfriend Wes and I have decided to keep the baby, and although it may sound kind of messed up, I'm actually excited...
I will be a fourth generation teen mom. My mother had my oldest brother at 15. Her mom had her at 16, and her mom had her at 18. My great grandmother is only 73 years old, and when my niece (her first great-great grandchild) was born, she was 67. It's really crazy when you think about it.
This blog is basically for me to vent about, describe and journal about my pregnancy/young motherhood. This is my intro post, so ya'll can get to know me!

So my parents. They met at in high school, and they were 15 when my brother was born. They got married when they were 18, a few months after my oldest sister was born. Growing up, they were good parents. I remember having fun, idolizing them. But those were the good days.
In 2005, we found out that my mother had been having an affair for about two years. The way we found out? She got pregnant, and it definitely wasn't my dad's, because he was away taking care of his sick brother for months when it happened. They divorced mid 2006, a month after my half sister was born. The divorce was UGLY. They fought bitterly over who got what, made my siblings and I choose sides, and basically tore us all apart. At the divorce, my siblings and I were about 17, 14, 12, 11, almost 10, and 8. I was 11. So both my brothers (the older one was also dealing with being a father at 17 because his girlfriend was pregnant), one older sister and I went to live with my dad, and one older sister and my younger sister stayed with my mom. It was bitter, and even us as siblings took a long time to talk to each other and become friends again. Now things are better, but I'm definitely closer with the ones who went with my dad. My reasoning was that my mom had the affair. She ruined the marriage. So I guess I tried to punish her as harshly as I could. Her and my step dad got married not long after the divorce, and have since had two more twin daughters together. In 2008, my dad also remarried, and they have since had a son together as well as my step mom having 3 kids from her previous marriage.
When I was 14, I was tired of living with my dad because it was just too crazy, too many kids, and I wasn't happy. So I went to my mom's, where I currently live (and go to my dad's most weekends), even though I get along with my dad and step mom much better.
So basically, these are all my siblings/step parents. I'll probably talk a lot about them in posts after this, so this is just to make it easier for ya'll to understand.

Dad's house.
His wife's name is Carrie. Her kids from a previous marriage are Tyler and Hanna, 12 year old twins, and Madison, 8.
Carrie and my dad have a son together named Jaxon (Jax), who just turned 2.

Mom's house.
Her husband's name is Chris. They have three daughters. Cambria is 5, and then they have twins Cordelia and Shae, who are 3.

My siblings.
David is 23, and he's married. His wife's name is Mia, and they have a daughter together named Ava, who's 5. He lives in the same town as my dad (about 45 minutes to an hour away from my mom's).
Persephone is 20. She's in college and lives a few hours away. She lived with my mom, so I'm not as close with her as some others.
Audriana is 17, and she's a senior. She lives with my dad, and we no longer go to the same school but try to do as much as we can together, because we're really close.
Then there's me.
Will is 15, and he's a freshman. He lives with my dad.
Kaiten is 14 and in 8th grade. She lives with my mom and I.


To make everything even more crazy, we have 4 pregnancies going on right now in my family. My step mom, mom, sister-in-law and I are all pregnant. My sister in law is due in April, and they're having a little boy. My mom is due in June and my step-mom is due in August. So it's going to be weird.

I haven't told anyone I'm pregnant yet, except for Wes and his family (he lives with his aunt and uncle, two sisters, brother and two cousins.)
Because of our family situations, we pretty much spent all the time with each other, and it made it really easy to say we were going one place and then actually go somewhere else.

For those of ya'll who read this, I hope you weren't too confused...
But anyway, that's basically my life. Confusing, complicated and full of emotion. I'm just trying to navigate my way through and then start my own family at the same time...