Hey, ya'll.... It's been far too long since I posted on here. The end of school was super busy for me, but somehow I made it through with As and Bs...
I'm 27 weeks now! The baby is doing great, and I'm really excited to meet HER! Yeppp, it's a girl. :) I was initially hoping for a boy, but I'm excited to be having a girl. :) I just have no idea what to name her, haha! I'm huge, I seriously feel like a whale sometimes. She moves all the time, especially right when I'm trying to sleep. It's like she's nocturnal in there, haha. I'm just exhausted all the time and I'm ALWAYS hungry. I swear I eat so much... My weight gain is normal, and I have no idea how....
I'm super nervous for labor, though. I'm seriously terrified! I don't know what of, because honestly I'm not really scared for the pain, but I'm still scared. Maybe it's just the fact that everything will change and everything will be so hard. But I know we'll make it... Somehow.
In other news, two babies have been born into the family! My nephew, Liam Warren, was born on April 15th, and my half-sister, Adrienne Micaela, was born May 28th. So right now we're just waiting for my other half-sister to be born in August and then my baby in September... So many babies! Hopefully my parents are through having kids... I mean, I don't see how my mom can want any more, she's almost 40. My dad's wife is only 36 so they could probably have one more after this, but still. I think I'd lose track of my siblings. :l Crazy to think that when my baby is born, she'll have 11 aunts and 4 uncles...
Summer is amazing. I swear I live for summer. The beach, the sun, the afternoon thunderstorms, the ice cream, popsicles, shorts, flip flops, boots, jeeps with the top down, etc. And most importantly, NO SCHOOL. I'm so thankful I don't have to go to school this pregnant... I don't think I would have been able to do it. Wes and I are doing really well, and he's been amazing with doing whatever he can for me. I'm a lucky girl<3
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Update!
So first off; Pregnancy! I'm 10 weeks right now, and finally really getting over morning sickness. I'm nauseous sometimes still, but it's not nearly as bad as it was! I still don't really FEEL pregnant, probably because it still hasn't sunk in yet. He/she is the size of a kumquat, which is a little bigger than a quarter. My next appointment is at 12 weeks, so I just have to wait for that! I've kind of been thinking about some names, but I haven't talked to Wes about it or anything. It's so weird, because when I first found out I was totally resentful of it and angry and upset. I never thought I might actually be excited or feel love for the baby even though I still don't feel pregnant.
But anyway... For girls I like Isla, Cassidy, Laila, Colette, Cosette, Elena and Cara for girls and for boys I like Logan, Noah, Jacob, Raif/Rafe, Flynn and Ethan.
Second, I just registered for all my senior classes! I'm taking English IV (regular this time!), AP Government, AP Economics, AP Psychology, Sociology, an FFA class, photojournalism, Anatomy and Physiology (advanced class) and Precalculus! I'm actually kind of excited about everything! It took me a while to decide on it all, but I feel excited about them. :) The only thing is that I hope I have the baby a little early so I can miss less school. I don't want to have to petition for credit or drop classes to take credit recovery.
that's really all for now... Happy late Valentine's Day, ya'll! :)
But anyway... For girls I like Isla, Cassidy, Laila, Colette, Cosette, Elena and Cara for girls and for boys I like Logan, Noah, Jacob, Raif/Rafe, Flynn and Ethan.
Second, I just registered for all my senior classes! I'm taking English IV (regular this time!), AP Government, AP Economics, AP Psychology, Sociology, an FFA class, photojournalism, Anatomy and Physiology (advanced class) and Precalculus! I'm actually kind of excited about everything! It took me a while to decide on it all, but I feel excited about them. :) The only thing is that I hope I have the baby a little early so I can miss less school. I don't want to have to petition for credit or drop classes to take credit recovery.
that's really all for now... Happy late Valentine's Day, ya'll! :)
I'm Engaged!
Last night, Wes took me with a blindfold on to this big field with a huge tree in it, and he'd gotten tons of mason jars and put lit candles in them and hung them from the tree! He took my blindfold off and as I was totally in awe and what he did, he got down on one knee and asked me to marry him! I seriously can't believe it, and I can't quit looking at my ring... It's so beautiful! I was so shocked, TOTALLY did not see that coming.
I can't picture myself married, haha. Honestly, before I got pregnant I never saw myself getting married until I was like, 30, if that.
I feel like such a lucky girl. Wes is seriously the best guy I have ever known. I feel so absolutely lucky to have him and that my baby will have him for a father. I know he'll always be there for us and I am so grateful for that! I seriously feel sooooooooo blessed right now!
It was seriously a total shock, though. I did NOT see it coming! I can't believe I'm 16, engaged and pregnant... Never saw that coming! But even though I was really scared at first and didn't want to do this, I'm feeling a lot better now. Before, I was so set on getting away from my family and going away to college with Wes. When I found out I was pregnant, I was completely devestated that it wouldn't happen. But now, I'm feeling more optimistic and like this future as a young mom and young wife won't actually be so bad. It all feels like it's coming together now! I feel a lot happier than I did at first, and I honestly would never have felt that way without Wes.
I can't picture myself married, haha. Honestly, before I got pregnant I never saw myself getting married until I was like, 30, if that.
I feel like such a lucky girl. Wes is seriously the best guy I have ever known. I feel so absolutely lucky to have him and that my baby will have him for a father. I know he'll always be there for us and I am so grateful for that! I seriously feel sooooooooo blessed right now!
It was seriously a total shock, though. I did NOT see it coming! I can't believe I'm 16, engaged and pregnant... Never saw that coming! But even though I was really scared at first and didn't want to do this, I'm feeling a lot better now. Before, I was so set on getting away from my family and going away to college with Wes. When I found out I was pregnant, I was completely devestated that it wouldn't happen. But now, I'm feeling more optimistic and like this future as a young mom and young wife won't actually be so bad. It all feels like it's coming together now! I feel a lot happier than I did at first, and I honestly would never have felt that way without Wes.
Monday, January 30, 2012
Sarina Joienne
That would be me! I'm 16 years old and am a junior in high school.
I recently found out that I'm pregnant. I'm due September 12, 2012. My boyfriend Wes and I have decided to keep the baby, and although it may sound kind of messed up, I'm actually excited...
I will be a fourth generation teen mom. My mother had my oldest brother at 15. Her mom had her at 16, and her mom had her at 18. My great grandmother is only 73 years old, and when my niece (her first great-great grandchild) was born, she was 67. It's really crazy when you think about it.
This blog is basically for me to vent about, describe and journal about my pregnancy/young motherhood. This is my intro post, so ya'll can get to know me!
So my parents. They met at in high school, and they were 15 when my brother was born. They got married when they were 18, a few months after my oldest sister was born. Growing up, they were good parents. I remember having fun, idolizing them. But those were the good days.
In 2005, we found out that my mother had been having an affair for about two years. The way we found out? She got pregnant, and it definitely wasn't my dad's, because he was away taking care of his sick brother for months when it happened. They divorced mid 2006, a month after my half sister was born. The divorce was UGLY. They fought bitterly over who got what, made my siblings and I choose sides, and basically tore us all apart. At the divorce, my siblings and I were about 17, 14, 12, 11, almost 10, and 8. I was 11. So both my brothers (the older one was also dealing with being a father at 17 because his girlfriend was pregnant), one older sister and I went to live with my dad, and one older sister and my younger sister stayed with my mom. It was bitter, and even us as siblings took a long time to talk to each other and become friends again. Now things are better, but I'm definitely closer with the ones who went with my dad. My reasoning was that my mom had the affair. She ruined the marriage. So I guess I tried to punish her as harshly as I could. Her and my step dad got married not long after the divorce, and have since had two more twin daughters together. In 2008, my dad also remarried, and they have since had a son together as well as my step mom having 3 kids from her previous marriage.
When I was 14, I was tired of living with my dad because it was just too crazy, too many kids, and I wasn't happy. So I went to my mom's, where I currently live (and go to my dad's most weekends), even though I get along with my dad and step mom much better.
So basically, these are all my siblings/step parents. I'll probably talk a lot about them in posts after this, so this is just to make it easier for ya'll to understand.
Dad's house.
His wife's name is Carrie. Her kids from a previous marriage are Tyler and Hanna, 12 year old twins, and Madison, 8.
Carrie and my dad have a son together named Jaxon (Jax), who just turned 2.
Mom's house.
Her husband's name is Chris. They have three daughters. Cambria is 5, and then they have twins Cordelia and Shae, who are 3.
My siblings.
David is 23, and he's married. His wife's name is Mia, and they have a daughter together named Ava, who's 5. He lives in the same town as my dad (about 45 minutes to an hour away from my mom's).
Persephone is 20. She's in college and lives a few hours away. She lived with my mom, so I'm not as close with her as some others.
Audriana is 17, and she's a senior. She lives with my dad, and we no longer go to the same school but try to do as much as we can together, because we're really close.
Then there's me.
Will is 15, and he's a freshman. He lives with my dad.
Kaiten is 14 and in 8th grade. She lives with my mom and I.
To make everything even more crazy, we have 4 pregnancies going on right now in my family. My step mom, mom, sister-in-law and I are all pregnant. My sister in law is due in April, and they're having a little boy. My mom is due in June and my step-mom is due in August. So it's going to be weird.
I haven't told anyone I'm pregnant yet, except for Wes and his family (he lives with his aunt and uncle, two sisters, brother and two cousins.)
Because of our family situations, we pretty much spent all the time with each other, and it made it really easy to say we were going one place and then actually go somewhere else.
For those of ya'll who read this, I hope you weren't too confused...
But anyway, that's basically my life. Confusing, complicated and full of emotion. I'm just trying to navigate my way through and then start my own family at the same time...
I recently found out that I'm pregnant. I'm due September 12, 2012. My boyfriend Wes and I have decided to keep the baby, and although it may sound kind of messed up, I'm actually excited...
I will be a fourth generation teen mom. My mother had my oldest brother at 15. Her mom had her at 16, and her mom had her at 18. My great grandmother is only 73 years old, and when my niece (her first great-great grandchild) was born, she was 67. It's really crazy when you think about it.
This blog is basically for me to vent about, describe and journal about my pregnancy/young motherhood. This is my intro post, so ya'll can get to know me!
So my parents. They met at in high school, and they were 15 when my brother was born. They got married when they were 18, a few months after my oldest sister was born. Growing up, they were good parents. I remember having fun, idolizing them. But those were the good days.
In 2005, we found out that my mother had been having an affair for about two years. The way we found out? She got pregnant, and it definitely wasn't my dad's, because he was away taking care of his sick brother for months when it happened. They divorced mid 2006, a month after my half sister was born. The divorce was UGLY. They fought bitterly over who got what, made my siblings and I choose sides, and basically tore us all apart. At the divorce, my siblings and I were about 17, 14, 12, 11, almost 10, and 8. I was 11. So both my brothers (the older one was also dealing with being a father at 17 because his girlfriend was pregnant), one older sister and I went to live with my dad, and one older sister and my younger sister stayed with my mom. It was bitter, and even us as siblings took a long time to talk to each other and become friends again. Now things are better, but I'm definitely closer with the ones who went with my dad. My reasoning was that my mom had the affair. She ruined the marriage. So I guess I tried to punish her as harshly as I could. Her and my step dad got married not long after the divorce, and have since had two more twin daughters together. In 2008, my dad also remarried, and they have since had a son together as well as my step mom having 3 kids from her previous marriage.
When I was 14, I was tired of living with my dad because it was just too crazy, too many kids, and I wasn't happy. So I went to my mom's, where I currently live (and go to my dad's most weekends), even though I get along with my dad and step mom much better.
So basically, these are all my siblings/step parents. I'll probably talk a lot about them in posts after this, so this is just to make it easier for ya'll to understand.
Dad's house.
His wife's name is Carrie. Her kids from a previous marriage are Tyler and Hanna, 12 year old twins, and Madison, 8.
Carrie and my dad have a son together named Jaxon (Jax), who just turned 2.
Mom's house.
Her husband's name is Chris. They have three daughters. Cambria is 5, and then they have twins Cordelia and Shae, who are 3.
My siblings.
David is 23, and he's married. His wife's name is Mia, and they have a daughter together named Ava, who's 5. He lives in the same town as my dad (about 45 minutes to an hour away from my mom's).
Persephone is 20. She's in college and lives a few hours away. She lived with my mom, so I'm not as close with her as some others.
Audriana is 17, and she's a senior. She lives with my dad, and we no longer go to the same school but try to do as much as we can together, because we're really close.
Then there's me.
Will is 15, and he's a freshman. He lives with my dad.
Kaiten is 14 and in 8th grade. She lives with my mom and I.
To make everything even more crazy, we have 4 pregnancies going on right now in my family. My step mom, mom, sister-in-law and I are all pregnant. My sister in law is due in April, and they're having a little boy. My mom is due in June and my step-mom is due in August. So it's going to be weird.
I haven't told anyone I'm pregnant yet, except for Wes and his family (he lives with his aunt and uncle, two sisters, brother and two cousins.)
Because of our family situations, we pretty much spent all the time with each other, and it made it really easy to say we were going one place and then actually go somewhere else.
For those of ya'll who read this, I hope you weren't too confused...
But anyway, that's basically my life. Confusing, complicated and full of emotion. I'm just trying to navigate my way through and then start my own family at the same time...
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